Running Away And Hiding In My World Of Sketches

Certain things I can't deal with, the worst of them all is saying goodbye, so instead of saying my goodbyes I chose to hide - hide as I sketch urban landscape and the people who face life head on and keep passing through the city like ghosts.

Yet eventually I did part with my feelings and the security that they represented in the present - for happiness, hope and faith for a better future. For belief and faith is all we have, if we lose them we might as well become a bunch of cynical, pessimistic, sore losers.

I believe that letting go of the security of today doesn't mean that the rest of my future has to be altered by the ugly wrath of time, for no matter how much I change and the world around me changes it doesn't necessarily have to be for the worse. Believing in that is the hardest thing to do especially when you are so happy in a moment that you just want to freeze it forever and never let go. However, if you don't let it go you will never get anything better or worse, you will forever be stagnant just like the ghosts who walk through this urban landscape.  

Blue Christmas Without You

"I'll have a blue Christmas without you
I'll be so blue just thinking about you
Decorations of red on a green Christmas tree
Wont be the same dear, if you're not here with me

And when those blue snowflakes start falling
That's when those blue memories start calling
You'll be doing all right, with your Christmas of white
But I'll have a blue, blue blue blue Christmas" 

- Elvis Presley

Right, that's just about how much I shall miss anyone who is not with me during Christmas.

i.e. as much as I miss tentacles, mountains, a falling Big Ben tower, a real Christmas tree, a fire to keep me warm, and the cold. Since Mumbai has no winter and hence no Christmas! So I shall have myself a BLUE CHRISTMAS! :)

Sketching Trip to Singapore Zoo

Swimming animals are hard to draw, yet drawing animal anatomy is fun because it challenges my conventional sense of form. Drawing animals really makes you use your eyes to draw because we are so used to drawing human figures that most of the time we assume what the anatomy or form will be like, but since animal anatomy is so unfamiliar it poses a greater challenge to a live drawing artist! 

Sleeping animals make me happy since they don't move and its easy to draw them!

Just as I was getting warmed up there was a thunderstorm and I had to rush to the shade, this is all I could see or draw from there. 

A sketch of the river in the Zoo, if you get the chance do go to the Singapore Zoo its an amazingly well made and well planned zoo! It makes me wonder what equatorial Singapore would really be had it not been this heavily urbanized.

Control

"Life's too short to even care at all oh!

I'm losing my mind, losing my mind, losing control"

- Cough Syrup by Young The Giant

All my days are about control, the battle to be in control of my life and destiny starts in the morning and is lost every night. Yet I must wake up the next morning and keep fighting for it is the illusion of control or the idea of it that sustains me.