It's been long since I posted, don't know I guess I just needed some time to contemplate...
The Purpose of Our Lives
That wind that blew into my face and illuminated every bit of me, that untangled voice inside my head that showed me the way ahead, that smell of the damp earth that tingled my nostrils and yet made me feel so comfortable, that silence that enveloped the night and made me feel so secure, that moment of pure carpe diem, that moment of pure joy, that moment of life, that moment was when i was a child.
Now is a new place, now I'm a new face, now I know not what I mean, I'm not safe, not secure, not comfortable, always contemplating, always thinking. They say don't give it too much thought - that was then and this is now. But it's not so simple, my mind wanders, it thinks, it contemplates - and all it sees is the hollow image of a girl surrounded by a hollow world.
What happened to the values that we were taught when we were small, what happened to living for a purpose and living for a cause, what happened to all the talk on a meaningful existence, what happened to the world?
Was it all fake - all that was taught to us as children - was it all a setup just as our entire lives now are - was it all just a hollow thought put into the minds of children?
The values that were passed down the years are broken in front of me for trivial things. I remember taking a vow when I was small - 'to follow the path of righteousness even if it meant risking the thing one most cared for' - now i see these values crushed in every step i take - bribery, deceit, corruption, lies weren't all these attributes bad? Didn't all of us vow to be good individuals, to never lie, to live a pure life that made sense. Do our lives make sense anymore? Aren't we living like zombies - where is the reason to live. I asked the question to someone, 'why do you live' only to receive the reply 'to earn money support my family'.
Do we live only to earn money, struggle, support our families and die. Why is this lack of purpose not bothering anyone else - whose lives are just a timetable that they have to follow without thought? No one cares, we bend rules, regulations, morals and even our ideals-where needed; just to stick to the 'timetable of life'. Doing all this we still teach our kids about a life of righteousness - about freedom - about purpose when we lack one ourselves.
Isn't happiness, truthfulness, the joy of being able to live a guilt free life, to be able to look everyone else in the face, to be able to sleep peacefully at night, to be able to think for ourselves, to be able to pursue what matters the most to one's self without regret of hurting others - the purpose of our lives? Or is just money, success, fame our purpose.
A meaningful existence, isn't that our objective? Today, in this place: no one knows - no one thinks, no one questoins. Even though we should live in the present it is important that we do not forget our past, the values, the PURPOSE.
We were taught as children what was the path of righteousness - I do not know if it was hollow or not - but I believed it in then and i do not understand why we don't now. Our lives would be so much better - so much simpler - and so much more meaningful. Let's live as children again- pure, secure, true and meaningful.
