Lost...

I shouldn't be putting this painting up untill I get assessed for it but I really wanted to post my fisrt oil on canvas painting...!!!

Great Stellar Dodecahedron

First try at Modular Origami..!

I Don't Know How, I Don't Know Why...

The first time when I saw you,

My eyes didn't believe what they saw.

I'd never felt like this before

My feelings even on canvas I couldn't draw...

You held my gaze for a while,

The least I could do was smile.

I don't know how, and I don't know why

You smiled back and made me feel shy...

I became your friend or at least I thought I was,

Little had I known that I was falling for a lost cause.

I don't know how, I don't know why

I kept falling like an eagle from the the sky...

Even when you told me you liked someone else,

I continued to fall hoping it was all pretense.

I don't know how, I don't know why

My heart clouds my reason every time I cry...

I still wondered about you late into the night,

I knew we'd be perfect together then smiled in delight.

I don't know how, I don't know why

I thought about how you loved her then thought it was a lie...

I knew you were popular, I knew I was an outcast,

Still I dared to climb now I am way up the mast.

I don't know how, I don't know why

You're still my sail no matter how much the wind might try...

Then you went and asked her out,

It killed me to watch you I wanted to shout.

I don't know how I don't know why

I still cared about you that way and sighed...

I still wonder, about when you shall see,

That you and I are meant to be.

I don't know when and don't know why

But I'm hoping that you might at least try...

Stereotypes

They Say Love Is a Leap...

...my question is, are we inspired enough to JUMP?

Yeh Hai Hamara Sunsan Veeran School

Fat Guy Dives!!

Apologies for posting after so long!!

Illuminated Streets..

Illuminated Streets..or hidden in the shadows of the people who run on it?

The Only Tree - The Lonely Tree

Respect Exists Only in Textbooks Now...

Do we even care?

The Kite Runner - After I Read The Book

Amir and I both should have known that nothing would EVER be the same again...

(p.s. Read the book before you see the movie)

Pirouette

Graceful, elegant, amazing!

A Flash Of Fragmented Memory

Everything from my past has come back to me in flashes of fragmented memory..

A Look at Our Hollow World

It is our indifference that keeps us backward; not our helplessness. It's time that we take a deeper look into our hollow world.

I do not want to grow up

I wish I could just be a 12 year old child again...

FREE!!

"I wish to float and fly,

I wish to touch the sky,

I wish to grow and dream,

I wish to live free like the breeze.

My spirit calls from deep inside,

Somethimes in a cavern i wish to hide.

I want to jump and sing along

Have fun and dance to a happy song.

I wish to be able to prove myself;

I wish i could just be myself.

I wish i was given some space,

To progress at my own pace.

I hope that others see- 

That i am best when i am me!

So let me fly away and blow away like the wind

Let me be free and i shall win."

The clips hurt and pull me down but know one thing you cannot cage the spirit, you cannot cage thought and you cannot cage ME!

The New Year

Lets forget the 'dead past' and try and move on...

The Purpose of Our Lives

It's been long since I posted, don't know I guess I just needed some time to contemplate...

The Purpose of Our Lives

That wind that blew into my face and illuminated every bit of me, that untangled voice inside my head that showed me the way ahead, that smell of the damp earth that tingled my nostrils and yet made me feel so comfortable, that silence that enveloped the night and made me feel so secure, that moment of pure carpe diem, that moment of pure joy, that moment of life, that moment was when i was a child.

Now is a new place, now I'm a new face, now I know not what I mean, I'm not safe, not secure, not comfortable, always contemplating, always thinking. They say don't give it too much thought - that was then and this is now. But it's not so simple, my mind wanders, it thinks, it contemplates - and all it sees is the hollow image of a girl surrounded by a hollow world. 

What happened to the values that we were taught when we were small, what happened to living for a purpose and living for a cause, what happened to all the talk on a meaningful existence, what happened to the world?

Was it all fake - all that was taught to us as children - was it all a setup just as our entire lives now are - was it all just a hollow thought put into the minds of children?

The values that were passed down the years are broken in front of me for trivial things. I remember taking a vow when I was small - 'to follow the path of righteousness even if it meant risking the thing one most cared for' - now i see these values crushed in every step i take - bribery, deceit, corruption, lies weren't all these attributes bad? Didn't all of us vow to be good individuals, to never lie, to live a pure life that made sense. Do our lives make sense anymore? Aren't we living like zombies - where is the reason to live. I asked the question to someone, 'why do you live' only to receive the reply 'to earn money support my family'. 

Do we live only to earn money, struggle, support our families and die. Why is this lack of purpose not bothering anyone else - whose lives are just a timetable that they have to follow without thought? No one cares, we bend rules, regulations, morals and even our ideals-where needed; just to stick to the 'timetable of life'. Doing all this we still teach our kids about a life of righteousness - about freedom - about purpose when we lack one ourselves.

Isn't happiness, truthfulness, the joy of being able to live a guilt free life, to be able to look everyone else in the face, to be able to sleep peacefully at night, to be able to think for ourselves, to be able to pursue what matters the most to one's self without regret of hurting others - the purpose of our lives? Or is just money, success, fame our purpose.

A meaningful existence, isn't that our objective? Today, in this place: no one knows - no one thinks, no one questoins. Even though we should live in the present it is important that we do not forget our past, the values, the PURPOSE.

We were taught as children what was the path of righteousness - I do not know if it was hollow or not - but I believed it in then and i do not understand why we don't now. Our lives would be so much better - so much simpler - and so much more meaningful. Let's live as children again- pure, secure, true and meaningful.